What do you do when you can't the ones you love? What if you weren't able to speak to them? If you couldn't tell your brothers and sisters that you love them...what would you do? How can you deal with something like this? How can you bear it? And be far away from them as well. My head knows that they know I love them but how do I tell my heart? How do I make it stop hurting? It pains me each time I see something that reminds me of them. Or if I see kids that look just like them, see something that they're interested in, something they'd like. I wonder if this pain will ever lessen or can it only get worse? Do they understand? Have they forgiven me? Do they hate me? Will I ever know? Questions and no answers.......